To be or not to be

I was walking back from the hospital, after seeing my grandma curled up in the ICU, mulling over what the nurses told me, seeing distinct mental images of my grandmother - in the ICU, when she peeps out of the living room to see who is out there in the patio, when she shares a secret with me that will irritate my mother, when she stands patiently in front me, waiting for me to open my eyes from my meditation, to help her with her ear buds. 



I start to wonder "Why? She is a nice person, who has only helped people throughout her life. She has only good things to say about people who have caused her heartache. So, why this situation for my grandma? " I certainly don't wish it on others but I certainly wondered why.I heard a few people around me talk about how God is punishing my grandma, despite her nicety. 

I don't believe that God makes good people suffer just to test how faithful they are. I merely believe in God and that is it! Everything else that happens to us, merely happens to us. Believing in God provides that faith that takes us through situations that which we thought cannot be handled. So instead of thinking to myself "Why God, why is this situation handed out to my grandma?", I consciously choose to say to myself " God, please help my grandma make the best possible choice that she can make for herself. Please give me the strength to choose the right attitude that will support my grandma, my parents, my family and I".

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